Pyaar !!!

Jiski yaad subha aankh khulte hi aaye....

Jiski awaaz yeh dil sab se pehle sunna cahhe....

Jo woh naa bole toh yeh dil uski woh baat bhi samjh jaaye....

Jiske aas paas humari saari duniya simat jaye....

Jiske sirf ek baar mukurane se saare dard dur ho jaye....

Jo aapke paas reh kar bhi aapke paas naa ho....

Jo aapki pal-pal ki duaa main shamil ho jaye....

aur yeh saari baaten padhte-padhte jiska chehra inn nazron ke saamne uttar aaye....

aur aap chupke se muskuraye....

PS: Not in love....just thoughts :)

YOU had your FUN, I had LIFE TIME LESSON

I read somewhere you should thankful to each and every people in your life because every one teaches you something good for your life. They give you the lifetime lesson from which you learn something and you don't do the same mistake again.

In your case I learned, I should not trust people so easily so that I will not get hurt again. You made me realize trusting you is one of life time fault. I trust people so easily that they take me for granted and I'm not the person to whom you or others will taken me for granted.
Anyways, THANKS A LOT for this I got to know one thing in my life I should trust people but after knowing 'em or after doing my homework on 'em.

Somewhere my brain was telling me this person is not right but my heart was saying no my friend you are doing the right thing & I thought may be this time my heart will be right & I should give you a chance but I know its of no use. I wanna ask YOU WHY DID YOU DO THAT??? but I know its of no use....from the beginning I was very clear on my part...  I told you each and everything very clearly and truthfully because I know no relationship can work on LIES....and for me if I am in any relationship I would give my 110% otherwise I do not prefer to be in any relationship whether friendship or LOVE.

Thanks to you I will not trust people easily now on, I will always have my doubts on 'em. Anyways, I learnt one very good thing and got to know good things about you that YOU HAD your good time pass and you played well with my emotions and sentiments & I got my lesson that I will not trust people so easily EVER AGAIN.....

THANKS A LOT FOR EVERYTHING..... 

CHANGE

When I first met you I know that its not gonna be easy with you to be with you coz I know my self that I am a no relationship person...I am the person who can not say  you have to be with me coz my theory of life is that if some one wants to be with you he/she will be with you no matter what it takes....b'coz I know I never ask my parents, my sister, my brother and my best friends to be in my life forcefully...they all are with me b'coz some where in their lives and in my life we compliment each other, we compatible to each other and top of that we they bear me at my worst....but with you I need to change my self a little bit coz at this point of time I dared to LOVE some one again...knowing that fact I will get hurt again...but somewhere deep in my heart I have feelings for you...my heart wants to love you...whether its our unexpected long drive, the time we spend with each other or the food you cook for me the fact I love it most b'coz you are the only person in my life till now who cooked for ME with all his heart ♥ you become my best friend the friend with whom we share everything...our pains, our joys, our emotions and all of US...I still love the fact you bear me with all your heart without saying a single word you always admire me, you always support me, you always love me and I know that you always will after knowing all the facts and changing everything between us... I am sure about one thing and will always be sure about it that whatever comes between us you will never stop loving me the nature of love will be change but the feelings and care you had for me you will always have for me....I know things changed between US very drastically and some where I am the only one who is responsible for all this...but I also know this fact I miss you each and every day...I miss all the talks, I miss the fights, I miss the drama and tantrums I use to through on you and you always took it serious...I miss US as besties....

So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you, me and our friendship every day…

I MISS YOU...

Trusting YOU ever again ?

I trust you so much
But now I have doubts on my trusting ablities that why did I trust you so much over a very little period of time....whether its LOVE or am I just looking for someone special who make me feel loved...no doubt you made me feel loved may be for a little period of time but you did it and I loved it... I don't know why I fell for you??? I made you so important person of my life that I wanna share each and every moment of my life with you...trust me I never care for anybody how much I cared for you...taking care of you the thing I loved to do that....whether its you office problems or your personal life crises I loved to take care of you I wanna make sure you are alright and you don't have any problem but now I have a doubte on myself that you want the same things what I wnated....I never said to you or may be never will but it hurts when you don't give time to me...that made me feel I am not important for you at all...in your world I don't have  a little space for me...its always about your friends your life and your office....what about me....??I am still searching the answers but it leads me no where...meeting your friends is so much important to you but when I asked it was a very busy day for you that HURTS....you just simply said I am having some problems and I wanna be just alone so my question is that if you wanna be just alone why even you let me enter in your life and made me feel that we signed up for the good, the bad and the ugly...you just cut me off and told me I wanna be alone JUST alone...your ignorence hurts and I ask the same question over and over again to myself that AM I IMPORTANT TO YOU EVER???? but it leads me no where over and over again...you told me I am perfect for you and againg you have a doubte that you can't take stand for what you love as you say you love me but seriously I have a VERY BIG doubte on that....you said you need my support and as far as I know that what I am doing supporting you from the day one....and belive me if you are ready to take stand what you belive you will always find me next to you holding your hand, for supporting you, for cheer you up in all the ups and downs in your life b'coz some where you became my life...I really don't know how it happened but YOU ARE.....and by all the means I meant it and I mean it and will always....but what happened in last few days it took my ability to trust you...I beacme that gal again who nevre belives in LOVE and  I am closing myself again b'coz I don't wanna hurt againg and don't want to go thru with that pain again...and if you are really serious for me so this time you have to do really hard work to bring me back...b'coz I close mysefl again just in case want to never get hurt again....you took my abilities to TRUST you again....I know you are trying hard to made me feel to trust you again but show that just don't tell me...b'coz  I want to trust you again but I need some more time...I want US to work out b'coz deep down somewhere I know you are my Prince Charming and I want to spend my rest of life with you jsut with YOU.
Just a request please prove me wrong and trust me I will be more than happy once in my life to proved to be WRONG.

Love You.....






 

Me, My Gals and Life

Talking to one of my gal friend y'day night, it started with Hi and Hello and all the genral discussion of well being and how have we been and hows life treating us?

While talking we flipped over the pages from our past life and where are we heading to? We realised how much we have been thru and how much we saw...the breakups, the patchups,frienmies the friends who became not exactly enemy but they are not friends anymore, the good, the bad and the ugly but still holding all together in ourselevs and giving a big bright smile to the world as nothing happen to us we are JUST fine.

May be we are on the way to forgiving people but still have the question in the mind can we forget all that and forgive those people who hurt us some where in our life and tear us apart and break our hearts and made us realise that living without 'em in impossible for us and we never gether ourselves back and live a normal life again but thanks to some special people in our life we came back with the BANG !!!

I have a few gal friends in my life and I'm very thankful to all of 'em that they understand me, they listen me, they cheer me up, they cry with me and the most imortant part they never judge me and still they belive in me and make me belive that one day everything will be just fine.

I am glad I have you gals in my life to whom I can share anything everything at any point of time and I always know you will be there for me at 3 am in the morning or 12 pm noon I know you are jsut a call away, you are in next room to me....you just call me to check am I okay or not...together we had it all.

You know the darkest secters of my life and I can trust you with my life to you and if god come down and tell me that you are being disloyal to me trust me I'm not gonna belive that.

We are each others soulmates and its not nessacery that their should be a guy to understand our frindship.You gals are my soulmate with whom I can share worst and best of my life and I promise whatever comes in between us will not effect our relationship.

Love & Hugs


 

Woh Khushnaseeb Pal

Aaj baithe baithe kuch purane pal yaad aagaye kuch bhoole besrii wo yaaden jo kahin kho gayi thi iss bhagam bhag ki zindagi main...
Yaad aa gaye wo dost jinko hum kahin peeche chor aaye the zindagi main aage badhne k liye...
Yaad aa gayi wo KV ki purani baaten...wo masti bahri yaaden...wo teacher ka gussa karna aur wo humari saari shitaniyan...
Wo gupta ji ki canteen aur wo lucnh main saath main sab ka khana khana...yaad hai aaj bhi wo din jab koi maggii lata tha to uska teffin chupa dena...
Wo barish main bheeg kar football ya cricket khelna...aur bheegte bheegte ghar waps jana...wo raste main ruk ke Pavan k samose khana...
Yaad hai wo 12 D ki class...class main Meena Gupta ma'am ka padhna aur humra naa padhna aur fir wo unka chilllnaa...
Roy sir ki baaten..Babuli ki English ki class...U C Aawasthi sir ki bakwas...R K Singh se tum sab ka darna...
Wo principal ka chillana...wo raat raat bahr jaag kar padhna....wo pre board ki tayariyan wo fairwell ka din...wo school chutne ka gum..wo doston se kiya wada ki kahin bhi rahengye...but touch main rahengye...
Kuch dost to bhool gaye kuch kahin peeche choot gaye...kuch apni zindagi main wayst ho gaye...but aaj bhi jab hum milte hain...to bas ek kadi hai jo humko jodti hai...wo humari bachpan ki dosti....
I hope you guys agree wid me...ki wo din bhi bahut pyare the aur zindagi main kabhi laut k aane wale nahi hai...aaj hum kitna bhi busy ho gaye ho...but nothing as good as our school life...missing u all...and missing that golden days of my life jo kabhi laut k aane wale nahi hai...